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Squirrely has been my nickname since I was a child, both because it rhymes with my real name, and because I'm forgetful and just plain nuts at times. I've been tagging for 2+ decades off and on, and now that I'm retired/disabled I'm pretty much on most of the time now.

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Thursday, May 12, 2016

Update

Good Morning to anyone out there :)

I thought I'd say hi and give a sunny little update on my progress to overcome the agoraphobia that's plaguing me now and keeping me away from tagging, facebook and Misfits.  Not to mention LIFE in general, which is the real hard part.

But there's progress to note, but the back story is necessary to see how huge this was for me.  Last year, my daughter in Australia and her fiance invited me to come there all expenses paid because they were going to get married in a little courthouse wedding with dinner afterward.  I had been having sciatica problems already so that's when I took a 6 week break from the computer & tagging to literally lay in bed and heal.  It worked well, but not enough for an 18 hour flight, and my doctor gave me a literal thumbs down.  They decided to hold off on the wedding to see if I could heal further, but told me they wanted to marry within the year - so I had my goal.

Fast forward 8 months to now.  Their little courthouse wedding has turned into a destination wedding at a mountain top resort, casual yet elegant with a main house and a few cabins for guests to stay in, in September of this year.  Shit....shit.....shit.  It's a DIY wedding as well with them making all of their decorations, flowers, gifts, etc.....so she really needs my help, aside from just desperately wanting me there in general.

I had to approach this with baby steps because I get overwhelmed every time I think of it, and the first step was getting my passport.  The government wouldn't come to me, so I'd have to go to them to do this, which has been the focus of my last two weeks of therapy. I woke up yesterday, hell bent on being at that wedding, loaded myself up with meds and check it out!!!
I made it!!  It was tough, don't get me wrong, but I guess the motherhood gene was stronger so that's what I'm going to rely on from now on.  This was a huge step towards progress for me right now, and I'm so happy I did it.  Whether the wedding is still do-able I don't know.  But at least now I CAN go because I have a passport - or will in 6 weeks.  Baby steps.....baby steps.....


Monday, April 25, 2016

TTFN


This is a very difficult post for me, not because I'm ashamed or embarrassed of this, but I don't like to be a "Debbie Downer", and this, is definitely a downer post for me.

I've realized recently that long past symptoms of an anxiety disorder I've been treated for since the 
late 90's have reared it's ugly head in my life once again. It's agoraphobia, which is the inability to process what is a genuine threat to oneself and what is not. People that suffer from this disorder find it increasingly difficult - and then impossible - to leave their own house without intense anxiety taking grip of your body. Anyone suffering from a severe anxiety disorder knows what THAT delightful feeling is - heart pounding out of your chest, profuse sweating, pinpoint pupils and sheer terror of the imagined unknown.

Ironically this disorder is how I found tagging in the first place. People I could talk to without leaving my house - yippy! Unfortunately, this particular manifestation for me has extended to my online life. I'm finding it impossible to interact in my favorite forum anymore, and now Facebook is becoming more and more difficult for me to be on as well. That doesn't really leave alot left to do with tagging, does it? 

I've begun treatment from a friend of my daughter who's a wonderful therapist, and enough of a friend to come to my house for sessions. I know it will take awhile for the reasons for this latest outbreak to surface from my subconscious, but I hope not too long. I've already missed 2 of my grandkids school plays, many family celebrations and my daily bike ride with my furbabies is nothing but a fond memory for me.

So for all of these reason it's time I take a break from tagging and creating for my blog. I'm utterly useless to Carita and Dee as a CT member right now, and I take those responsibilities too seriously to continue for now. FOR NOW!!! I'm shouting it because it's my plan to return sooner rather than later. I've got new tubes, for God's sake, that I've never even used yet haha.

I have a renewed interest in digi-scrapping again, which is the one silver lining I can grab onto right now. I've made albums in the past of all my kids and grandkids, but before now hadn't even begun one for my little Aussie grandson who just turned 2. He's such a delight to scrap too because the kid cannot take a bad picture. ;) I will miss you all, and I mean that....and please wish me - quite literally - well.

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